Kili and the Future

It’s been almost 6 years since I went to Tanzania to hike Mt. Kilimanjaro. An event in my life that I don’t really bring up because I don’t want to be placed on a pedestal. Since the peak is so far away and seemingly insurmountable to people, if brought up, they automatically think I am some amazingly strong person. But in …

You Always Meet Twice in a Lifetime

I used to be so very sentimental. Full of feeling and empathy and happiness for my friends and life. High school was probably the happiest time of my life. A place where I shared ideals and understandings about life and love. One day I was sad about saying goodbye to someone…now I forget who, but another friend of mine, David, …

Words

You know that saying “sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me” ? As kids we used to hear that all the time as encouragement to not take mean words to heart. An effort to reduce negative reactions to bullying and kids being kids. But I never figured out how to not let words hurt …

My Relationship with Cycling

Needless to say for those of you that know me I have a lot of free time on my hands right now. In the past I would have spent all day working on getting stronger by going for a run, doing yoga, riding my bike, going to the gym, etc. But as of late I’m finding it hard to motivate …

Emotionless

I can be pretty emotionless. I remember last year my brother came to LA to visit me and my co-worker asked if I was excited. I was, but I kind of replied with a shrug and a ¨yea sure¨. It´s because I spent a lot of my life holding back my emotions. Stuffing down anger, frustration, and anxiety was the …

Personal Practice

I’ve been teaching for a few weeks now and have slowly come to realize how much I’ve forgotten what it’s like to be a beginner. I thought since it was only 3 years ago and that I have a “pretty” good memory I would understand, but I don’t think I do anymore. It’s not a bad thing. I just need …

Relationships

I’m home for 2 weeks. It’s been 5 days and already I feel more “complete”. There’s nothing like being around people that have known you for a long time. The relationship you unknowingly worked on through the years pays off when you renew it year after year. This is what it is like to be an adult. Your life is …

100th Post

One hundred posts ago I started writing about getting healthy. Exercising, eating right, and above all mental health. Since then I have studied nutrition (on my own and through school), become mostly vegetarian, cycled 4000 miles (more or less), run 5ks, 10ks, half marathons, and a marathon. I’ve tried I don’t know how many sports: capoiera, swimming, snowboarding, hip hop, …

Pursuit of Happiness

Empty. Is where I’m at. Is how I feel this week. MS 150 is over. I haven’t signed up for any races or made any goals. I kind of don’t want to. I feel like I’m just kicking around a soccer ball. Kick…run…kick…run…kick…run…sit. I went for a run today, but I just didn’t feel like running. I tried but ended …

Food Tastes Good

Ugh. I just did the typical and ate myself into an impending food coma. Since I moved home I’ve found it hard to keep up a healthy and happy diet. First I don’t do the grocery shopping and do almost no cooking now. Bad bad bad. My mom doesn’t know what’s healthy, what’s not, what’s more healthy or just ok, …