I was 5 days from finishing the Wanderlust 21 day yoga challenge when I decided to stop. I was swamped with my natural tendancy to over-commit to life. I was starting school, volunteering, teaching yoga, seeing Don and trying to take care of myself all at the same time. In addition I was already practicing yoga 2-3 times a week already just by teaching and practicing with my students. So having to practice an hour in the morning then again for 20 minutes later in the day seemed excessive and was something I don’t have time for. What I wanted from the challenge was to learn ways to teach and to try to have a daily practice. I’ve always struggled with building and having a consistent personal practice. Even though I cut it short, I think I got what I wanted out of it. Just trying to have a daily practice forced me to see how much I struggle with staying still. I could not get through the 20 minutes without pausing the video to go and do something else that was on my mind. My mind wandered constantly and it was a struggle to stay with Skyler. As the days passed it got easier to focus on one thought at a time and then come back to the video, but I now understand what I need to work on. Patience for myself and focus. Focus on the task at hand for at least the 20 minutes I’ve allotted.
When I decided to stop the challenge, I was proud of myself for letting something go that didn’t help me anymore. It only caused me stress. Even though I committed to the 21 days, I evaluated during the journey whether this was still good for me or not. Day by day it changed and after 16 days it was no longer good for my life. I think this is a good practice for everything in life. We are good at holding onto things that don’t work for us because of our integrity. It’s ok to stop and say, no more.
Things I learned:
- Your personal practice can be as little as 5 minutes a day. Start there and let it evolve.
- It’s okay to release yourself from you commitments. Re-evaluating the benefits is a necessary thing and stopping if your commitment isn’t good for you anymore is prudent and mature.
- Life is a journey. Try the same thing over and over again to get good at it.