I was having a conversation with a friend and she was worried about her relationship because she knew it was temporary. And I felt, well everything is temporary. If life has taught me anything it’s that beginnings can’t be anticipated and endings are unexpected. Sometimes endings are drawn out or relationships are brief. You can’t know the future.
I had a friend through middle school and high school. I would say she was my best friend through middle school and a really good friend in high school. My favorite one for sure. We had every class together and did all the same extracurriculars, but after high school we went our separate ways and lost touch. She moved back to Houston after college and we reconnected. I lived with her for about 8 months before she left again for more school in LA. I visited her a year or so later and then I moved to LA. But since I’ve lived here we have hardly spoken or seen each other. I recently learned she moved to NY. I guess we aren’t friends anymore. I’m not sure. I think I tried to hold on too tight and it didnt work.
Lao Tzu would say, “Try to change it and you will ruin it. Try to hold it and you will lose it.”
But who knows. The beauty of life is that even though we are not connected now, we might reconnect later. Who says you can’t have multiple relationships with one person? Maybe our childhood was intertwined and now that has ended, but later on down the line we will become friends again and start something new. I have faith. My heart is open.